I’m about half way through the reading of Ruthless Trust by Brennan Manning. I began it awhile ago and was picking away at it fairly slowly. Then as I was dropped into a situation of complete unknowing and chaos I found the book speaking to me. Right when I needed to be reminded about trust. Right when I needed my faith to hold up under fire.
But what about doubts and worries? Do they too, signal a rejection of God’s Kingdom?
Not necessarily. There can be no faith without doubt, no hope without anxiety, and no trust without worry. These shadow us from dawn to dusk; indeed, they appear even in our dreams. As long as we withhold internal consent to these varied faces of fear, they are no cause for alarm, because they are not voluntary. When they threaten to consume us, we can overpower them with a simple and deliberate act of trust: “Jesus, by your grace I grow still for a moment and I hear you say, ‘Courage! It’s me! Don’t be afraid.’ I place my trust in your presence and your love. Thank you.” …
After the initial experience, perseverance in the life long quest for greater intimacy with Jesus, no matter how often we stumble and fall, is not only the antidote to hopelessness and despair; it is the sure path to divine certitude that overcomes all doubts, anxieties, and worries… (p104, 105)