This house is big and very empty tonight. It is strange how when everyone is around, I long for these kinds of days and when they come, the silence is deafening. The kids all seem to have their own busy agendas. Leo is off to the east – in Winnipeg tonight and then to Kingston tomorrow. When it is so quiet I find it hard to get anything accomplished. So I have been reading and dosing off and on. That is maybe what I need anyway – to catch up on some rest.
Maybe all this emptiness of the house is just a symptom of the empty nest syndrome. I guess that is coming soon. I need to change some of the ways that I do things or I will waste a horrible lot of time just sitting and staring at walls. This change is going to call for more discipline. Over the past few years I have been mainly trying to catch up to whatever is waiting for me to do next – always some activity, some task needing to be done. I will have to design my day so that I don’t just sort of flounder about wasting time.