Luke 18: 16 and 17
“Then Jesus called for the children and said to the disciples, “Let the children come to me. Don’t stop them! For the Kingdom of God belongs to such as these. I assure you, anyone who doesn’t have their kind of faith will never get into the Kingdom of God.”” (NLT)
A friend despairs, becomes depressed because of the state of his life and the state of the spiritual life of many around him. At least that is partly the reason, I guess.
I’ve been there too. Sometimes life is extremely hard to figure out. And when you begin to think deeply about God and where we fit in well it is mind boggling. Some thoughts are not even resolvable. You get to a certain point and then the thought pattern sort of collapses, leaving a sense of what on earth am I believing anyway”. And then worse yet is wondering if maybe the neurotransmitters are just out of whack, the brain being such a mixed up bag of chemicals, and we should not really trust our feelings and experiences.
Maybe believing in God is something for which we have to let ourselves become simpler; simpler like a child. A child that is full of the wonder of the world around. Like the first time a small child flies. They aren’t very interested in the technical reasons the plane can fly rather they are amazed watching the earth drop away as they take off. Like their first snowfall they don’t ask how the flakes are made, they just enjoy jumping in it, tasting it, feeling its coldness.
Maybe I should follow the advice of Jesus and become as a little child, stop trying so hard to figure out everything about God and about myself. I can’t figure it all out anyways. Maybe I should just enjoy being His child playing in His presence, trying to keep my little feet in His big footprints and stop trying to figure out in theological/logical terms how I can possibly know Him.
I suppose this is oversimplifying things. I have a great deal of respect for reason and knowledge. I am glad there are great and deep thinkers who have used their wisdom to understand some of the amazing things about God. I do not think that one should rely only on experiences and feelings as a complete revelation of who God is (because that could be just some chemical thing going on in our brains). But Jesus took the simple things around Him and made them into stories we could understand. And he showed us how to love and care for our neighbors. He did not spend much time in the great institutions of learning arguing a case for God. He just lived an exemplary life and then gave us that very life to redeem ours, coming back to show his friends that yes it was true death and sin were conquered.
I would like to live out that kind of a life that would be loving enough, simple enough, transparent enough, to show God’s presence, as it were, through my skin.
And I wish the people who know me best my family would see more of God in me and less of the areas where I constantly fail.
17But the wisdom that comes from heaven is first of all pure. It is also peace loving, gentle at all times, and willing to yield to others. It is full of mercy and good deeds. It shows no partiality and is always sincere. (NLT)
And if this seems much too introspective – well these things usually follow an episode of completely failing to be wise.