News today really knocked me for a loop. We have been waiting on something for a long time and got news today that it was not going to be possible. I knew this was likely to happen but still when the news came it seemed so wrong, so unjust and unfair. And the news has made my day simply a miserable one. It was hard to work keeping the bad news inside. The news still had not been passed on to the people who will be hurt by it the most, so I couldn’t even share my feelings with people around me.
Life goes on around me but it seems like it shouldn’t. It makes me want to scream, but I am an adult so I can’t act out my outrage too vocally – so it has been stored inside all day. I am not one of those people who find it easy to cry but this is one of the times I would appreciate the relief that a good cry would bring. This is one of the times I wish I felt free enough to call up a friend and just go talk – and then I probably would cry and get it out. But I’m also one of those people who doesn’t like to impose because everyone else has busy schedules too.
So the internet sits just waiting for such moments and you guys, if you read this will probably just wonder what on earth is the matter with me. I will tell more later and have a good rant about certain injustices in this world, but for now, I want to break this bad news to the ones who need to know in a more personal and gentler way. Just have to figure out how to do that.
Prayers would be gratefully accepted!