Off to the Oasis

My weekends are usually an oasis in my week – I don’t have the same old routine and the responsibilities change.  I am beginning to think that my week of work is my oasis, not the weekend.

This weekend went from crisis to — I don’t know what.  Last night was good.  We had a good time sharing together at our study.  We were looking at the temptation of Jesus in the fourth chapter of Yancy’s book The Jesus I Never Knew.  I do not like “free will”.  However, that said, if I didn’t have free will, I guess I wouldn’t even be able to rebel against it.  Anyway, the reason I hate free will so much right now is that my kids and I get ourselves into all of our troubles because we are so self willed and I wish I had someone right now who would make me do things right – ’cause I don’t seem to do a good job on my own.  So even after sharing my difficulties as a parent with some other parents who also shared that they make just as many mistakes as I do, I came home and ended up being unnecessarily harsh on another one of my kids. 

And I am supposed to be the adult with self control!  I am going to have to do some appologizing today because I care about her even when it doesn’t look like it or sound like it.  And I want her to learn that becoming an adult(growing up) is not about being(or becoming) perfect but has more to do with asking forgiveness and trying again.  I don’t want her to see me as a hypocrite thinking that I am perfect when it is so obvious to her that I am not.  I don’t know how obvious it is to her that I know I am not perfect but I hope it is obvious to her, or becomes obvious, that I love her – even when I blow it as a parent and have to appologize to her.  

So, off I go to my work oasis where I won’t have to deal with my kids till … 

 

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2 responses to “Off to the Oasis

  1. Sharon

    Work can be a wonderful “getaway” where family concerns usually have to be put on hold. With Matthew bringing home another cat on Friday night and Shannon phoning me at work this morning saying “I almost ran over a black and white kitten and when I stopped it just jumped into the car!!!” so now we have 6. We have to do something with this kitten and she won’t take it to the SPCA….anyone want this little job??? Have fun at your oasis, Linea……I think mine’s flooding…………

  2. Linea

    Now don’t offer ME any more kittens!! A three legged one is somehow “special” and deserving of special dispensation. I, not being a cat lover as such, have fallen in love. He needs me! How can I turn down something that needs help to survive? So I am and always will be a bit of a sucker!